Monday, September 20, 2010

sleep... why do you not like me?

Ok so it is 12:30 at night and I can't sleep... 
at all
I had to go to the doctor today because I was having trouble breathing..
my doctor told me I have asthma.
Well... I have always had it but it had never bothered me till now. 
Is super sucks. 
I can't stop coughing and this whole wheezing, and 
nasty barking cough is getting old fast. 
I also got some medicine that I took that is keeping me awake. 

So here I am...
Updating you on my life. 

School: 
hmmmmmm...
I have a love hate relationship with school right now. 
I am taking 20 credits and it is kickin my royal behind! 
I am taking:
History of ballet and Modern (harder than you would think)
Ballet III
Modern III
Digital Multi Media
Computer Art
Chemistry (Lecture and Lab)
Moving Company (Their Modern Company)
SAJE (Jazz Company)
Choreography
And institute
(I'm at school from 9-7 basically every day)

But i do have an scc family! 













I have an awesome schedule it is just so crazy hard and 
 time demanding that I don't have time for anything else in life.
I am learning a lot about my craft that I love a lot! 
But i think I might have bitten a little more off that i can chew at the moment.
I know I can do it but it's going to take a lot of dedication 
and commitment
and I can't procrastinate...
 and I procrastinate like it's my calling in life. 
So that is a little difficult. 

Job:
It's really not existent.
I had to quit at the Kids Club because of school 
and I can't teach very often because of school
(wednesdays I teach a 3 year old class and a 4 year old class)
and I can't do the musical this time around because of school
so... ya the amount of income coming in is very non existent.
which stinks.
a LOT,
not really just the income but the whole NOT teaching a lot really stinks.
 I'm not a fan of it. 
That's what keeps me going I have realized.
I am so much less stressed out about life and school when I am able to teach and dance my own style. 
I haven't really done that at all this semester
It's almost killed me off a couple times. 
I also blame my sickness on it. haha
ok so as you can tell i'm bitter about being so busy with school, and not teaching 
but i know that my schedule worked the way it did for a reason, 
So things will be ok.
I have faith

Friends:
I have such great ones!!! They keep me sane haha I love them! Aka Tori and Darlene
I also have a bunch of guy friends that are getting home from their missions 











so i have been seeing lots of people
it has been fun
(I probably should be studying instead but whatevw!)

Boys:
Meh.
nothing serious,
like i said i have some friends getting home so i have been on a lot of dates.
*which have been awesome!
and my best friend Brian is home so we have been having late night study parties.
I love them! and he's teaching me piano songs! 
haha
but ya, school is really running my life at the moment so I can't look for anything serious or I wont do my work...
haha I know me. 

Ok now I am just rambling. I don't really have anything else to update on. 

Even though life is PSYCHO CRAZY I am still thankful for it and love it everyday!

Come What may and Love it!!